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  1. I hope this status shows up, I already tried twice, but for some reason I wasn't able to post status updates. All I wanted was to tell all the Americans: I wish you the best and you don't deserve any of this :( Here, this is definitely needed: :icecream::icecream::icecream::icecream::icecream::icecream::icecream::icecream::icecream::icecream::icecream::icecream::icecream::icecream:

    1. aihpen

      aihpen

      Oh it finally worked!

  2. I'm back from a busy time, but I'll have some exams tomorrow and the day after that and I hope that my life will manage to somewhat calm down next week :)

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    2. aihpen

      aihpen

      Thanks. I just hope I'm good enough because the two exams today weren't that good :S And tomorrow I've got the hardest one -_- I'm taking those exams for the second time and I'm not giving up, if I'll fail again, I'll try again next year, but I'd really prefer to finally be done with it as soon as possible xD

    3. Dodgypotato

      Dodgypotato

      Mine start next Monday with my hardest one.. Also taking it for the second time. Good luck to us both on that one, Aihpen!

    4. aihpen

      aihpen

      @Dodgypotato Good luck with that! I'm done today, the one that I thought would be so incredibly hard, was actually doable ^_^ But overall I'm not sure it was good enough :/ I hope yours go better!

  3. aihpen

    CAPSLOCKIA

    @Zemaddog LET'S HOPE YOUR NEW PHONE WONT END LIKE THAT BEFORE YOU PLAN TO GET A NEW ONE ANYWAY.
  4. I might look like a woman to other people, but that doesn't mean I present this way because I want to... and therefore it doesn't really have anything to do with my gender. It's simply because of other people that I look this way and I hope to change that in the (hopefully near) future.
  5. Okay I do get that gender role strain thing occasionally, but what made me wondering if I'm cis were some of the other things you mentioned... I want to bind and surgery sounds tempting, but I'm scared of going to doctors because I've been to so many in my life and most of them were no help at all and some might have even made things worse than before, so I'm quite hesitant when it comes to something like a surgery... I've thought about hormones, but don't think it'd be worth it because while I'd like some aspects of it (like redistribution of fat in the body), I wouldn't like other parts (like facial hair) and I'm not quite sure how I'd feel about other aspects (like voice changes), so it would probably not make much sense. I don't care about pronouns to be honest and same with how people see me. Gender ambiguous nicknames are cool, but my name doesn't offer many nickname possibilities, but I think I'd really like that, at least I really like being called Pen here and on aven, which I'd say could be for any gender. So if I'd want to follow what you said I should look into whether I'm actually cis... That's exactly what I'm trying to do, but none of that seems to get me any further with finding out. I guess that totally depends on how you define gender dysphoria. If you think of it as discomfort/unhappiness/distress caused by your sex/gender assigned at birth, it might be seen as gender dysphoria, but I also read definitions of gender dysphoria that add words like intense or strong to the definition in which case the examples you used might not be gender dysphoria. That's why I don't understand any of this gender stuff, there are always either different definitions floating around the internet or the definitions are extremely vague... I honestly don't even care that much about finding a label for myself, knowing how I feel and how I want to act on those feelings is enough for me, but I like to do my best to understand other peoples identities
  6. Bye, if you'll never see me here again, that's probably because I drowned in my impossible amount of latin vocabulary, grammar and translations that I need to learn/do...

    1. Acciuga

      Acciuga

      Good luck, and farewell.

    2. Louis On Air

      Louis On Air

      Lorem Ipsum dolor sit amet, heaps of Latin you shall get.

    3. aihpen

      aihpen

      @Louis HypoThanks, fake latin at least doesn't have to be translated, so that's definitely appreciated ^_^

  7. I have a real problem with wanting to do more than I have time for :/

  8. My uni regularily has ace and aro spec meetups??? Why am I only now finding out about this? :o

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    2. Zae

      Zae

      Wow, that's so awesome~

    3. aihpen

      aihpen

      I know it's great :)

      @aussiekirkland That sucks! They should make it easier to find things like that, I only found out because it was on a facebook site that was linked on a website linked on another website which was linked on my unis website... and that was the only place to find it, so I hope it's actually a true thing...

    4. aussiekirkland

      aussiekirkland

      @aihpen ours was hidden much the same. In fact, I'm surprised I found it at all. I don't know how they expect to get good attendance when people can't even find the event page.

  9. Life is great right now :D

    1. Acciuga

      Acciuga

      I'm glad you feel this way! 

    2. Zae

      Zae

      Yay, that's awesome! Let's make it even better with ice cream :icecream:~

  10. This describes pretty well how I feel. I'm really not bothered by being called female, but when people try to tell me to do certain things or act in certain ways etc. just because I'm considered a female, then that is honestly very annoying. But having a female body sucks. Well as a child it was fine, but then puberty came... Also, I don't expect anyone to be an expert on this subject, but sometimes talking to other people about something I don't understand on my own helps a lot (no matter how much they know about the subject, sometimes people don't know anything and then their stupid questions get me further ) That's exactly what I was planning to do. I don't really care about labeling myself. I don't care whether I'm cis or whatever. Because I know what I want and probably wouldn't tell people anyway. The questions I asked were out of pure curiosity and because my mind keeps wandering there
  11. I used to play the violin, but I don't anymore because I've got too many hobbies to handle at once and had to cut something out and that happened to be playing the violin. I was never too good anyway, but I enjoyed it, especially playing together with others, that was fun (well, once I got used to my teacher... )
  12. aihpen

    CAPSLOCKIA

    EW OCTOBER JUST REMINDS ME OF ASTHMA BECAUSE THAT IS WHEN MY ASTHMA USUALLY GET'S WORSE. TOO MUCH COLD AND FOGGY AIR FOR ME TO BREATHE PROPERLY BUT ON THE OTHER SIDE THIS IS THE TIME OF THE YEAR WHEN STORES START TO SELL CHRISTMAS FOODS AND WHILE SOME OF THOSE THINGS ARE TOO EARLY TO BE SOLD IN MY OPINION, THEY ALSO START SELLING MY FAVOURITE COOKIES BECAUSE APPARENTLY THEY ARE CHRISTMAS COOKIES
  13. @Zemaddog That makes sense, but that leads me to the question where the (maybe blurry) line between gender and body dysphoria is. If you feel dysphoria about having for example an afab body, but don't really care if others see you as a female or anything else, is that body dysphoria? Or gender dysphoria? Does gender dysphoria always include a social aspect like what pronouns people use and being perceived as a certain gender?
  14. All the time I read about how not all trans people feel dysphoria, but I never see anything about the other way around. Are all people who feel dysphoria trans? Are there cis people who feel dysphoria? I've been wondering about this for a while now and I'm actually surprised that it somehow never gets mentioned. Maybe the answer to this is very obvious, but as almost anything that has to do with gender, I am completely clueless. Anyone has answers for me? It would be highly appreciated
  15. The German AVEN makes me extremely uncomfortable. Not very aro friendly :( 

    1. Zae

      Zae

      Yeah, I didn't like it either~

    2. Iyck

      Iyck

      I don't like it there either, glad there are alternatives

  16. I'm aro ace and afab and my index fingers are longer than my ring fingers. I don't believe the length of my fingers could have anything to do with my orientation... How do people even come up with the idea to make a study about that?
  17. I can't believe I handed my portfolio in. So many months of work went into it... :S

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    2. aihpen

      aihpen

      It's for an application for an entry test to uni... If that portfolio is good enough, they'll let me have a few exams and if I pass all of those I can apply. It's a lot of work, but I hope it'll be worth it.

    3. Dodgypotato

      Dodgypotato

      I always feel as though I've lost a part of myself when I hand huge assessments up. xD

    4. aihpen

      aihpen

      That's exactly how I feel. I think this must be what my mother felt like when I moved out.

  18. aihpen

    CAPSLOCKIA

    I'M BACK! AND I AGREE JOB APPLICATIONS ARE NO FUN. AS FAR AS I REMEMBER ALL THE JOBS I HAD IN THE PAST WERE JOBS THAT I GOT WITHOUT PROPER APPLICATIONS. SOMETIMES I JUST KNEW PEOPLE WHO OFFERED ME A JOB AND ONCE I CALLED THIS INSTITUTION BECAUSE I WAS INTERESTED IN WORKING THERE AND THEN I HAD AN "JOB INTERVIEW" WHICH WAS MORE A CONVERSATION ABOUT SOME DETAILS OF THE JOB AND ME VERY(!!!) SHORTLY SHOWING MY SKILLS, I PRACTICALLY ALREADY HAD THE JOB THE MOMENT I SHOWED INTEREST IN IT I FEEL LIKE IT'S NOT GOING TO BE THAT EASY LATER THOUGH, WHEN I ACTUALLY TRY TO EARN A LIVING
  19. aihpen

    CAPSLOCKIA

    I'M ALRIGHT. I'M ON HOLIDAYS AND I'M GOING CRAZY FROM BEING AROUND MY FAMILY ALL DAY AND BERELY GET SOME TIME ALONE, BUT I'M HERE FOR THE MUSIC AND THAT HAS BEEN GREAT SO FAR, SO IT'S DEFINITELY WORTH IT
  20. I wont be online much for the next month or so. Too busy with applications, working on my portfolio and going on holiday, but I'm sure I'll manage to drop by occasionally :arocapapo:

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    2. owl

      owl

      Good luck! And have a nice holiday :) Eat lots of :icecream: for us!

    3. RedNeko

      RedNeko

      Good luck with your applications and your portfolio and I hope you enjoy your holiday.

    4. aihpen

      aihpen

      Thanks everyone ^_^ It's going really well so far. I got accepted to uni and found a room that is affordable. And my portfolio is going well too so far :)

  21. Humans are weird. I don't think I'll ever understand how they work :eyebrow:

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    2. omitef

      omitef

      Humans work?

    3. aussiekirkland

      aussiekirkland

      As in having a child. Sounds infuriating. But yeah people are weeeeiiiird

    4. aihpen

      aihpen

      @Louis Hypo I don't know why. It's just what I think about every single day and yet I still don't understand humans.

      @omitef That's a good question. One that I can't answer.

  22. aihpen

    CAPSLOCKIA

    AHHHH, I THINK I GOT INFECTED WHILE NOT BEING IN CAPSLOCKIA FOR THE PAST TWO DAYS OR SO! I FIXED IT THOUGH, SO NO ONE ELSE HERE WILL GET INFECTED BY THIS CRUEL DESEASE.
  23. aihpen

    CAPSLOCKIA

    SEEING EVERYONES PAPO PROFILE PICTURES MAKES ME WANT TO DO A :PENPAPO: OR :AIHPAPO: ... I'LL PROBABLY DO THAT LATER.
  24. I'm right-handed, but a few things are easier with my left hand.
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