Disco Cow

I get the lying feeling all the time. I know that it's natural to an extent, but it still doesn't feel great.

As a cupioromantic, I kind of like romantic subplots as long as they're well written and don't take away from the story. That being said, adding romance just for romance or to complicate the story, drives me insane. Like, who's idea was it to have romance in a life or death situation?! anyways that's why I couldn't finish the hunger games.

Sorry if this was cringy, I'm not really all that great at writing, even if I love to write.

Speaking of weather, the Midwest might be do for one of the worst winter storms in it's history around Christmas. We're talking life threatening blizzards. Hopefully it's just a fluke, but wish us luck if it isn't. The last time we had such a bad blizzard, I got stuck at my grandma's house for a week.

((This is writing based on the song cupid by Jack Stauber and my real life experiences from being cupioromantic.)) Cupid When I was younger, my only real dream was to fall in love and start a family with my very own prince charming. I had no idea what else I would be happy with, after all, it was all my friends ever talked about. So in a way I lied to myself about love, over and over again. I pretended I knew what it felt like to throw myself at whoever I could, time after time. So when I realized I’d never really felt happy with a person, I pushed it down as far as I could. I convinced myself that I could learn to love you. Deep down I knew this would only hurt us both, but when you looked at me like that, what could I really do? I told you what you wanted to hear, in hopes that i’d feel the same way at your praise. I couldn’t say I was shocked when you told me you loved me, but what am I supposed to say? Should I just tell you I feel the same? I don’t. I want to, I swear. I want you to feel better, even if I don’t. I want you to be happy, you mean so much to me, after all, But I can’t tell you that. I know that you’d say “If I really mean so much to you, than you love me don’t you?” and in a way I do. But I can’t bring myself to lie again. I don’t want to hold your hand or whisper sweet nothings, because that’s all it is, Nothing. I want to feel loved, wanted, and adored. But I don’t want what they want. People my age who sob over the slightest hint of fading love. At first I believed they were just dramatic and I’d grow into such love, But I didn’t, and now what? Do I just say that it’s not my time yet? I don’t know, and that’s the thing. I can’t tell why I feel so hollow at your words, that I beg to hear. I don’t know why i’m so desperate to feel something I can’t. I don’t know if the term broken fits me. I don’t think it does, but I don’t know why everyone else says that. I can’t grow into love, or just find the right wonderful person to take all these worries away. I’m not even sure i’d like that. I don’t want you, or anyone else to kiss me, despite how much I want to be wanted. I’m sure it’s selfish to want love when I can’t give it back, but god knows I do. That’s not fair to either of us. I can’t tell you how much I want to love you, and a part of me does, just not in the way you need. I love you the way I love how the sun rises, or how the snow falls. I love you like I love the songs the birds sing on foggy spring mornings. I love you the way I love when music tears at me. I do love you, Just not the way you need.

I might be aromantic but I am physically incapable of choosing the rude dialouge options in video games because what if I hurt the feelings of the 10 pixels on my screen 😔 I love folk rock like the crane wives but most indie artists in general are great.

I agree, I have no problem with others who headcanon characters as other sexualities, it just makes me upset when they ignore everything else about the character and refuse to admit they aren't who decides the characters gender or sexuality. thanks for the comment! you have really good points.

alright, i'm not sure if this is in the right topic but it does have to do with headcanons. Sometimes when I tell people that I consider certain characters aromantic/asexual, people get mad and say that i'm homophobic for not considering them homosexual or stuff like that. A huge example of that is Isabella from Encanto. Most people see her as a lesbian, which is totally fine! but they tend to get angry when I say I consider her aromantic. I don't know if I'm in the wrong, but if i'm not i'll say it's very annoying.

But even though they are tame to you they are even more vicious to others. People will do anything I tell them to.

Here's a bland and normal introduction of myself because I don't have anything to do and people might as well know me. My name is Madison and to be completely honest I'm not sure where I fall on the Aromantic spectrum but I know i'm somewhere. I'm very interested in psychology (shocker) I came here to make friends and be an overall addition to the community, usually my posts probably won't be as serious as this since it's very hard for me to take things seriously, but I wanted people to get to know me more. I have 6 pets, (3 guinea pigs, 2 dogs, and a cat) and a little sister, who lives with my mom. I guess that's all? don't really know what else to talk about.

But everything in the sky gravitates towards you I wake up with a new superpower each week.