Eli Vanto

I am pagan :) Looking into things tho. An ex-Christian

Sexual orientation. I am very much asexual, and I in NO way could change that. It just repulses me. Romantic orientation I’m still struggling as what if one day I like someone…? But then again, I could never romantically like a man or woman. Non-binary person? Perhaps.

I’m agnostic/spiritual at the mo :) I do believe in a God, but I also don’t particularly like religion (or perhaps I haven’t looked deep enough, but for now, I’m not interested). I was raised Christian, but my Mom was always falling out with God over her own abuse in her life and I followed suit. I don’t believe we can know anything about God for our minds are so small, and God is infinite. However, I do know someone/thing is out there for there have been so many miracles I’ve witnessed to not XD

For women (And AFABS) it’s put on you that your entire worth is based off that one person you’re supposed to date/love/marry. That relates back to how woman are property of men, that thinking back in the something hundreds.

Personally, I previously have never really thought of Valentine’s Day because I never liked anyone XD But now I realised I don’t want to like anyone romantically, and tbh Imma just hunker down and celebrate an Aro Valentine’s Day with chocolate cookies

I physically cannot speak to males anymore in person for this fear XD I'm AFAB, and I had one male friend I met on a group trip. We talked, had fun, but then one of the teachers said something along the lines of: "Nothing else going on here, right?" I laughed it off, mentally scoffing. Two days later he admitted I was one of his 'Stars' T-T For some reason (I don't remember most of that week tho I was sober lol) I am traumatised from that experience of amaton. and just cannot talk to males XD

I usually am romance repulsed when I image me in a romantic relationship XD If its passing mention, or quick lil scene, I'll enjoy it but if its the entirety of the conversation/book/scene I get annoyed as hell. I'm aegosexual so I thoroughly enjoy smut and sexual activity THAT IS NO WHERE NEAR ME ???

Amazon has £5 ceramic white and black rings :)

I want to live with a QPP (maybe plural) and be gay and snuggle in bed and go to work (or not) and come home to a dog and there is so much hope but unfortunately… Aros are scarce :( Maybe living in one of the most influential cities might help that tho XD

I honestly very much desire to cover my place with Aro flags and things XD I do want a relationship, a QPR, and I feel like it would be a personal assurance that I can be proud of who I am. Proud of ignoring amatonormativity and doing with my life what I like. That's just me tho XD

I love being AroAce because it means that there is a whole revolution redefining relationships as they stand!! :D (Relationship Anarchy, Loveless aro, Amatopunk, Lovequeer to name a few ^_^ ) I don't have to follow the rules society places on relationships, I don't have to have sex or romo at ALL, I don't even HAVE to have a relationship!!! I can just exist!!!

My name is Eli, I've known I'm aromantic and asexual since last March but it was probs last week when I actually accepted I'm both those things XD Casually gonne vibe here, maybe write a post or two, and generally be queer in this corner ^)^