Marco

Im not 100% sure bc i feel sexual attraction but ive never had any romantic experiences and it confuses me bc i love the idea of romance for myself I convinced myself and that ill meet someone nice and we'll treat each other like any typical couple. novels, manga, etc they influenced my infatuation w romance but when I imagine it on me its gross and cringe and I don't want it, but maybe its just a result of my insecurities and I just feel that I don't deserve love pls help:<