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  1. Native Polish (Cześć wszystkim!) here Learning English (Hello everyone!) since the kindergarden, taking Spanish (¡Hola a todos!) for 4 years, on Monday I'm starting a French (Salut! Okay, I don't know much more yet :P) course.
  2. I have 3 people outside of my family, that I hug almost every time we see each other. Besides those, I almost never initiate a hug, but when somebody hugs me... well, it may be nice or awkward, it depends on the situation and my humor. For example, today was the last day of school. My friend hugged half of the class for goodbye, and I was like 'Ehm, so, bye, see you in September'. But maybe it's a question of my shyness/social anxiety.
  3. I have never experienced crush nor squish on a celebrity, but also I don't understand how it works. I just wonder how can you have a crush/squish on a person that you don't know? I thought that first you need some kind of acquaintanceship with someone...
  4. I'm thinking about coming out to my dad, saying 'Let's get one thing straight - I'm not. No, I'm not a lesbian.' and watching him trying to guess what am I talking about. It would be pretty funny.
  5. Last time someone openly showed interest in me was... in primary school. Since then, I have no idea how to tell if someone likes me...
  6. Well, the thing is, I don't know! I don't know why I don't want to fall in love or admit it. It just seems... like a weird, bad combination - me, who is known as the perpetually single friend who is completely fine with it and who doesn't talk about boys, and 'love'. The other cause is probably that I don't believe that anybody could be interested in me. Yeah, I got pretty low self-esteem Geez, I thought I knew myself better... But anyway, thanks to everybody that has responded so far
  7. Help me, I'm confused. Since I'm pretty sure of my asexuality, I've been trying to find out my romantic orientation. I've already considered myself hetero-, cupio- and aromantic, but I wasn't 100% sure. Lately, I've thought I must be aromantic, because I haven't had crushes for years, and, looking back, they probably were just squishes. But now I'm super confused because I thought - maybe indeed, I've had several crushes, but subconsciously never wanted to admit it? I don't know why would I do this - falling in love isn't something to be embarrassed about, is it? But on the other hand, assuming I am in love or in a relationship irritates me pretty much. I don't really believe that somebody could be interested in me in a romantic way. I have troubles making friends, let alone finding a boyfriend. Recently I've had 2 huuuge squishes. One was on my colleague from the previous school, that I've known for almost 10 years already, second on a boy I met on the Internet. And I had several symptoms that actually they are my crushes. Getting excited about texting with them, thinking about them half of the day, getting nervous before meetings with the first one, also, each time I was walking in his neighborhood (we live close to each other) I hoped that we met by coincidence. When I have a problem and no one to talk to, I imagine that he listens to me. My squish/crush on the colleague has already faded a bit, but still, I like him and want to be friends. The second hasn't faded yet. I'm not sure how does it feel to fall in love, but I guess it's similar. One part of me wants to be loved, to have someone who is more than just friend, to experience romance. But the other says: 'Ewww, it's gross, exchanging spit and holding sweaty hands. Being attached to one person must be horrible. You would be a terrible girlfriend. Nobody will ever want you and it's not as bad as it sounds'. If somebody asked me whether I experience romantic attraction, I would say no. But in reality, I don't know. And even if so, I probably wouldn't admit it to anyone and keep denying that I'm crushing on someone. Aromanticism would be a perfect excuse. If not for others, then for myself. I know that labels shouldn't be important, but I don't know if I can consider myself aromantic or not. Probably I'm not allo, because this crush-ishes happen rarely. But I'm really all abroad. I don't want to fall in love and I don't want to have to admit it if some day I fall. Ugh, sorry it's so long and for potential language mistakes. But writing it all down helped a bit with tidying the mess in my head. Maybe you'll have some advice or thoughts.
  8. Melancholic-phlegmatic. Introverted as hell.
  9. Playing 'truth or dare' and every time choosing 'truth' being asked, which boy do I like the most. I've always thought like this: Friendship => Romance => Sex Very dated, I know :P
  10. Trying to explain everyone else that the boy I like hanging out with IS NOT my boyfriend or crush.
  11. Have you ever had a squish on someone who you know only from the internet? In February I started to write a roleplay with one guy who had found me on a Q&A website. He's 2 years older than me, lives in a city 250 km (155 miles) far from mine, we have similar hobbies, he's funny, smart, talented and I like him a lot, even though I don't really know him, I don't even know how does he look like. We talk mostly about our roleplay but I want to know him better, talk about other stuff, like our interests, school, plans for future and generally, what's going on in our lives. Right now he's having his final exams so he's too busy to write, and I kinda miss him. Sometimes I imagine that he comes to my city, for example, to study at the university, and we meet in person, walk around the old town and chat. But on the other hand vision of meeting him in real life freaks me out. Has anyone experienced something like this? Any thoughts on internet squishes or internet acquaintances in general?
  12. I'm almost 17, right now I have 2 squishes, I'm not sure if I had squishes before, or they were crushes. But I have never felt such an intensive desire to be close friends with somebody as I do now.
  13. Then asexuals don't have fingers ;)
  14. Hi, I'm also new here. Nice to see you
  15. There were some boys that I really liked at the kindergarten and then in the primary school (when I was 10-12 years old), but I'm not sure if there were all squishes or crushes.
  16. Hi! Maybe someone has already seen me on the AVEN forum, where I signed up a couple days ago. I'm a 17-year old girl who identifies as asexual. I'm not sure if I'm aromantic or not. But probably yes, because I had my last crush in primary school (then it turned out how horrible I am at being someone's girlfriend), kissing seems gross, I have squishes, for me finding a real friend is more important than finding 'my better half', I don't like romantic books or movies + several more reasons. But I would like to have a boyfriend and maybe even a husband (especially asexual would be perfect :3). Not now, not tomorrow, not in next 3 years, but someday - yes. It would be quite an extraordinary relationship, though. Okay, but I'm more than just a label, right? I'm a book lover, I read mostly YA and fantasy, I like learning languages (right now English and Spanish, I'm going to start French this summer), I love everything that' sweet, I have 2 dogs, I'm addicted to music - I listen to indie rock, indie pop, alternative, dark pop, sometimes even hard rock or pop punk. I'm glad I found this site Sorry for my grammar or vocabulary mistakes if I made any.
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