Only been in 2 serious relationships, and 2 almost-relationships. All long distance in one way or another, which didn't make anything less confusing! Waiting until after youve paid several hundred dollars for a plane ticket to realize you don't like a lot of physical affection is wild
For all of them I think I was really more into being someones "favorite person" regardless of how I felt about them. I really liked being adored and Ive only dated people who felt more strongly for me than I them. (I broke up w the first guy when i started feeling he had gotten bored of me, or stopped paying attention to me so much) And if they weren't really all that into me then things usually never went much farther than the "crush" stage. I also used to confused very strong friendship for romance, so when I thought I had a crush on someone really I just wanted to be closer to them as friends usually.
I always bought into that "never know till you try it!" rhetoric everyone used to say but I guess after experiencing those relationships I can finally say I don't want a romantic relationship.
