Having recently started identifying as aro, and realizing I've always been adverse to relationships and not feeling the same way as my partner when I'm in them. I do fear being alone, and while realizing that I'm aro it really hasn't helped that fear. I've also noticed my "crushes" are actually just squishes and usually just based on lust that fades after a few weeks. I'm trying to come to terms with it all, and have Apologized to past partners for not knowing I was aro and basically leading them on the whole time. I'd like to have a life long partner, not just because of society saying I need one, but because some needs can't be met at the moment without one, at least as far as my current friendships go.
