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I often feel really sad when thinking about not being able to fall in love, I looked up if it was normal and this was the first thing to pop up. I don't have those feeling towards people but I love the concept on having someone to love and love you back, in a non platonic way but everytime I think of myself in that situation it doesn't feel right. I feel immense guilt when I realise my mom will not get to see me go out on dates or get married or any if that, I get the feeling of missing out too, everyone around me talks about people they like, acting and I'm over here like "I don't get how you feel that way" and I feel like im missing out on valentines or when people talk about how amazing it is to feel that way but I'm trying to put it in my brain that I don't have to feel that way and it's alright, I'm not broken.