So, I am divorcing my husband. Domestic violence, stealing, endless criticism...whatever.
I wish I had of known what aro was before. I was always 'too independent'. I just thought I was self-possessed. Whole. Aren't you supposed to come to someone whole so you don't screw them up with baggage and toxicity?
I was also told I was intimidating for a girl. Dude, whatever. That's so lame. I'm 5'4. 130lbs. Get a grip.
When I get quiet and honest with myself, and after talking with my abuse counselor....I get in relationships for the possibility of having children one day, not having the romantic relationship. Romance and entanglements make me sick. Physically ill. Emotionally unwell.
I really love kids. I'm a mama at heart. The men I selected were not the best guys as far as lovers go, but they were better dads or had great dad potential.
After much soul searching...I now know I must live true to Aro. I am talking to my counselor about in vitro fertilization instead of partners. This last relationship almost ended my life. I must be true to me or I might not survive the next one.
I will raise my babies to know that there is nothing wrong in essence with love. But it's not for everyone. And that's okay. I want them to be socialized well. Just because Mommy is different and avoids romance doesn't mean you babies have to.
What do you all think?
Thanks for reading
