HolyShrimp

I have considered myself fully 100% aromantic for a while without any doubt. Recently I have doubted this a lot. I think I have a crush on my best friend and I'm not sure what to do, what I'm wondering is would this make me Demiromantic? I have never had a crush before so I assume that's what this is. She's my closest friend and I trust her more than anything. I haven't had feelings for her most of our friendship, this is like a last few months sort of thing. Anyways, it seems to me this has been my one and only crush ever and it's on someone I know very well, a while after we became close. I still feel a connection to arospec identities. I know I'm not alloromantic. I just don't know where I fall on the aromantic spectrum anymore.

I don't know if this works for everyone but it's a trick that has worked for me: If you're really confused on weather what you feel is romantic or just the pressure of an amanormative society take a bit to imagine, like really imagine, being romantic. Like think of the person all the things you like about them. Then really imagine yourself doing romantic things with them like going on dates and referring to them as your girlfriend/boyfriend/partner. Take whatever your very first, initial reaction/feeling to that is, and believe that. Usually I find that the true feeling shows itself before the expectation or outside pressure does. I don't know how helpful that is but yeah. It's a really difficult thing but keep your head up! You've got this. :)

so basically there's this girl. i met her this year and she's so cool and at first i though it was my typical squish but then she confessed to me... and i already was like thinking i liked her more than a friend and stuff cause i think abt her all the time but her liking me back rlly made me be like "wow" cause no body has ever liked me. anyways i turned her down sorta but we're still friends and i was so worried cause i really really don't want to lose that. and she liked me romantically i think but i like her differently i think? i don't want to go on a date with her but i think abt her so much and like, more than previous squishes ig? this just feels more intense but i don't think it's romantic. she's so fun to be around and i feel so comfortable yet awkward around her. im also worried i'm lying to her emotions ig cause i'm not out as non binary so she thinks i'm a girl... ive identified (not fully publicly) as 100% aromantic for nearly two years. does this make that not true?