I really love the idea of someone being madly in love with me, it feels incredibly good. It's the sort of relationship I'd love to be in. But it's not fair if I can't reciprocate the feeling, so, that sucks. But I've never seen any phobia, harassment, hostility, pressure or lack of privilege from my sexuality so that much hasn't impacted me. No one seems to care, at all, about who I am with or not with.
Being in love is, alternatively, the most wonderful, or the most painful experience for allos. When it works, it's better than anything else on the Earth and when it hurts it apparently feels like dying. It's why all so much music is about love, it's that wonderful and powerful. I want that, a passion that beats every other passion by far. I don't have anywhere near that level of joy and passion as it stands.