Ollie Declan

she's actually older than me, she's turning 16 this year.

okay so: been a bit since i wrote this post. i told her (in the nicest way possible) to get the fuck out of my life about a year and a half ago. i let her keep hurting me for a year or so after that because i am horribly self destructive and it was like a weird, awful addiction. she didn't redeem herself in the slightest; she made it clear to me the last time we talked that she didn't care if she hurt me because she didn't want to lose me because i "was such a good friend and irreplaceable". she has messaged me multiple times since because she has no one and really wants to make things right, even messaging me on the one account i didn't have blocked, going through side accounts, etc. the only problem? i have to deal with her 17 hours a week because we're in all the same classes. she's obnoxiously loud and self obsessed. she roped me in by making widely unacceptable statements that she was suicidal and hurting herself (she never was) just to get attention. earlier this year, she loudly exclaimed that there's no need to be depressed, that you should just "stop choosing to hurt yourself and get over it". i sometimes wonder whether she actually understands the damage she did to me, and the lifelong issues i now have with regards to affection and trusting people with my identity. i'm not great, but i'm better. i don't live my life constantly on the edge when i have to be in the same room as her, but when my mental health gets worse, my ability to ignore her and keep myself calm plummets. it's a long process, but i'm just so grateful i've found friends who actually care about me and don't treat me like shit.

Hey! Mod Ollie here. The discord server is as active as ever and more people are always welcome! New invite link: https://discord.gg/H2KcsWR

Hey! Other admin of the server here. We recently had a bunch of raids, and so have closed all invites. If you'd like access to the server please PM myself, Zema, or Eklinaar. I will update this thread when our invite situation changes.

Apart from being great at tearing myself down I'm also good at volleyball (I'm a terrible setter though) and flute.

122 black cards and 407 white cards!

If you don't mind me asking, why did you have to stop playing?

Hey everyone. I've been a part of this community for nearly 2 years but haven't really said anything. I spent my time in the chatroom until the Discord Server was created, and (somehow) became an admin, along with Zema. I identify as aro-ace and I'm a trans guy, and I am very sensually/aesthetically gay. I've been playing volleyball for approximately 4 months now, and flute for over 3 years. I'm socially awkward, but I try my best. I recently (6 months ago almost) started writing a fantasy story where one of the main races is a bunch of polyamorous avians that heavily embrace queer members of their society (including aroace avians). It's my baby and I plan on getting it done one day. The link, if anyone's interested; https://www.quotev.com/story/10092791/Humans-are-our-Enemy/1 (shameless self promotion, I know) And the link to the Discord Server. discord.gg/MvZVMxW Hope to see you around!

Do you mean the Arocalypse server? If so, no. This is open to everyone. It'd be easier to be on the server for this project though, if that's what you mean.

Well for now the project is only just starting up. It all depends on what you'd like to do for the project. There's no push to be extremely committed to this, but of course if you're willing to spend heaps of time on this it's greatly appreciated. Even if you can only spend a few minutes a day on it, everything counts.

Earlier today on the Arocalypse Discord Server, several people and I discussed a collab story by everyone who wants to. This story will follow a group of queer characters in a different world. The amount of these characters and exactly what they'll be like is still unknown. Same goes for the world, as it's a very new concept. Anyone can help with this project. Writers can take on a character and use their writing style to create the character. Artists can illustrate the characters/give sketches of things in the world. People who can't exactly do either of these things can still help out. You can give ideas, edit, give feedback, help with promotion or research, or anything you'd like. We aren't sure where this is heading to, but if you're interested in joining the collab, join the server here: https://discord.gg/FUSXawC If you have any questions, please just ask.

I have 0 organisation skills. I tend to make my way through life with sheer luck.