Witch18

Oh i will look further into that. Tbh i think the problem is i have a really bad memory so i cant really remember what made me want to date those people? Like its been so long.

Its just hard to tell if they were actual crushes. I guess they were cause I remember wanting the peoples attention at least once. And every-time i asked the person out cause i hated just sitting there and waiting to know if people liked me too. But I don’t know. a part of me just also really used to like romance and was desperate for love but i’m not really like that anymore? So idk if that factored in to any of it

So i’ve been identifying as Aro for a while, but i’ve been thinking and trying to pin point why i dated any of the people i dated. i know I didn’t consciously choose. Did I actually love any of them? Have i been in love? i feel like some of the crushes were just me liking attention but im not really certain about the rest. All the relationships ended the same way tho, me being miserable and wanting to be single because i was happier being the persons friend than their lover. i just don’t know. I just wonder if i’m really aro because those “Crushes” if thats what they were, wouldn’t have existed in the first place if I was aro right?

I don’t know if anyone has done her yet but I headcanon Reyna from Heroes Of Olympus as AroAce. I know that it said she has a crush on Jason and Percy but I feel like those were more of her thinking she had to be with someone and picking the closest people. She is canon Asexual but her romantic orientation isn’t specified so she could very well be Aro. I know a lot of people headcanon her as lesbian I just can’t see it.

YMBAI when you break up with someone it hurts because you’ve lost a friend. Not because of any romantic love but because you did care. YMBAI the song All You Wanna Do from Six hits too close to home.

When I was a kid I watched a lot of Disney movies and would always just pick a character to be attracted to because I thought aesthetically they looked good and because I thought I had to have a crush. I spent so much of school just wanting someone to like me like that but every time someone asked me out I would either say no cause I felt absolutely nothing or say yes thinking my platonic feelings were romantic and then break up with them weeks later cause I was uncomfortable being in a relationship. Also how I found out I was asexual cause my sister asked me what actor I thought was sexy and I didn’t know what to say but Magic Mike had just come out and everyone was raving about him so I just said Channing. She didn’t believe me when I told her I didn’t actually think that but whatever.

My sister and I tried watching the Vampire Diaries and I just I couldn’t finish it. I came for the fantasy and I left for the romance. I watched the Lovely Bones movie and at the end the guy who killed the main girl is about to get away with the crime and what does she do? She possesses this girl so she can kiss the guy she liked. I had never been more frustrated in my entire life I swear.