I would like if you can hepl me. I štarte to think that I can be Aro circa two months ago, but I am not sure.
I have never felt something like crush or feeling towrds anyone, even though I tried. I can only be friend with person. But how can I be sure? I haven't met „the one“ maybe. That is the thing that confuse me a lot. What if I am just like Anastasia Steel and I am waiting for my Christian Grey until I am 23?? Now I am 19 and I feel like it is too soon to considere whether I am Aro. Or I am just too ugly for anyone to date or I do not know.
But on the other hand there are some Things that make me think that I might be Aro. For example when one guy was really trying to get my Facebook name and I was like what the fucking fuck(sorry for swearing?). I felt like he was trying to pop my own personal bubble. I almost felt panic and dirty. I was Longing for any of my colleagues to come and rescue me.
Or that I can not Imagine me really being in romantic relationship. I can imagine holding hands and lying on bed, but when it comes to snogging. Yuh, I hate the smack sound of lips while kissing. When I see someone snogging like that I always look some where else. And when it comes to sex... as a virgin it is weird thing for me. After just I Imagine it it feels and looks somehow weird.
And when people are speaking about love I am just listening, 'cause I do not know how it feels. I can say that someone is attractive, but that is all.
I want to be with someone and live with someone, but I am not sure if I want it to be romantic or just good friendship.
Ou and I can not say when someone flits with me or what. Some times when I am at work a few men wink at me but I feel more like I want to štart running and escape.
I can watch Disney fairy tales and feel the pain of love when I am reading book or comics. Is it ok? I mean for someone who can be considered as Aro.
Maybe I can not feel love, because I am emotionally arid/dry as my mum said a few times. As a cancer(zodiac sign) I am supposed to have high EQ, but sometimes I have lack of any feeling.
So all this things are just making mess in my head and I want it to be clear.
That's why I would be glad if you help mé with sorting out whether I can be Aro or maybe something else, more specific or so.
?????? Please help me. I am tired of feeling weird and bad that I can not like/love someone in romantic way.
Thanks for any advice or answer.
P. S. Sorry that it is so long?