I suppose I'm doing this right. My name is Kat and I'm some form of Aro, which form I'm not sure. I know that it's all a spectrum and that it's OK to fluctuate, but I'm already an exhausted aro ? I've sought out relationships in the past, but always end up being incredibly less emotionally invested than the other person. Most of the time I have that fleeting initial infatuation, but it wanes and I find myself missing the times when I was alone. I always prefer to be alone, except for the company of close friends and that's why I think I'm aro. I don't look for romance when it comes to seeking relationships. I look for a good friend who I can be sexually intimate with. I'm definitely not asexual, but bad experiences are leading me toward a life of celibacy anyway. To be honest, I'm trying to separate what parts of myself are actually aromantic and which parts are just part of being 4w5 (that is an enneagram reference). For the longest time, I thought there was something wrong with me, that my standards were too high or something because I was never found anyone that I wanted to be with. Finally, I'm learning to accept myself and accept that it's perfectly fine not to want someone in that capacity. Just because a lot of other people are telling us that we should commit or form a romantic relationship, it doesn't make it the right thing to do. I'm glad to be here, everyone!
