So, for a good while, I've used the label panromantic as I thought that describes me, however, I have before questioned if I am demiromantic since I can experience romantic attraction when I have a strong emotional connection to that person but its a very confusing thing to pinpoint down, like I don't really get crushes (i mean maybe on fictional characters but I can somehow emotionally connect myself to them if that makes sense :3 ) but maybe if I do, it is usually on someone who I am close to and strongly emotionally connected to but even then that's not very often
however now I have a very awkward situation, so me and one of my friends were hanging out before I go to my lgbtq+ society meetup and she said oh you and R (one of the guys in our friend group) would make a good couple and now it seems like I have a squish on him but its all just confusing for me and yesterday, me her, R and another guy from the friend group were sat in the library cafe mucking around and talking then talking about how there were three single peeps (me and the other 2 guys) and she jokingly went to R wink wink nudge nudge to him about me since we do get on very well and a lot of other things as well so that's making me even more confused, like idm the shipping of us since i know it can be kinda fun and stuff yet I just wanna hang out with him when its just us two and do more platonic stuff and see if maybe if we can for the strong emotional connection :3