I'm 16 and I've never had a real crush. I never really loved (romantically) anyone and people around me say "you just have high standars" "you will fall in love eventually, maybe now you are just inmature" "you have to let your feelings flow, don't repress them".
When I'm with my friends and they see a hot boy/girl i just think "Is cute" and that's all, while them say "Oh, he is really hot" "I want him to fuck me hard against the wall" or something like that (I'm from Argentina and yes, they really say that and it's really normal)
I always tried to force myself to feel things. I had two boyfriends in my life but not because I loved them, i was with them because i wanted to feel something, i wanted to experience romantic love but it never happened.
First I thought "Well, if I don't fall in love with man, maybe I will fall in love with a woman" but I was wrong, it was just the same.
One day I was talking to a friend about this and she said "Maybe you are just asexual". After that I googled it and i thought "No way i can be asexual, maybe i don't really feel atraction to people but I want to have sex, i enjoy masturbation, i will enjoy sex too". Once i watched a video from an asexual boy and he was explaining that there are different tipes of asexual persons and some of asexual people enjoy sex, in that moment i was like "Why is this so confusing?". After that, i found AVEN website and i asked my question "A person who doesn't feel sexual atraction but also wants to have sex, is an asexual person?" and i get even more confused, because some people said "Yes, you can want sex and be asexual" and others said "If you want to have sex, you are feeling sexual atraction after all, so no"
Now that i'm in this website and after telling my whole story, i can ask , Am I asexual? Am I just aromantic? Or maybe am i just confused and eventually i will fall in love? How did you find out that you are aromantic and at wich age?