i always thought i was straight, and tbh i internalized a lot of homophobia & arophobia that existed around me & that came out in me doing this obnoxious double-reacharound thing where i pretended to be superior for not being interested in romance (singles club & all that) but sort of believed that One Day I Would Get A Crush and tbh it was probably v immature and annoying but it was also sort of this way for me to convince myself that i was Just Like Everyone Else™
anyway im pretty sure doing all that really damaged my emotional development, 0/10, do not recommend