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  1. ladyasym

    My latest aro crush

    Yeah, I definitely know exactly what you're talking about. For the longest time, I thought it was what people meant when they said 'crush'. I still don't understand what a romantic crush is, or how it differs from thinking someone is a cool person, and wanting to get physical with them. Like, if the main focus of a romantic crush is just doing things with the other person, how does that make it romantic?? Anyway, too bad that nothing happened with that French guy!
  2. ladyasym

    BDSM aro relationships

    I'm very involved in the kink community where I live, and I've found that the best approach is just to tell people straight up about what you want, or what you're looking for. Playing coy or feeling uncomfortable about outlining your needs and boundaries is just going to lead to miscommunication. So if you decide to approach them about becoming play partners, make sure you know exactly what your boundaries are, and what you're looking to explore. Before engaging in anything, also outline limits, and have a safeword/safe non-verbal action in place for informed consent and safe play. As an aro-spec person, just be sure to tell them what your limits and boundaries are for connection, and what aromanticism looks like for you. BDSM is not inherently romantic, but with the right play partner, it can be an extremely intense physical and emotional experience. Be prepared for that. It may not be romantic, but depending on your role, and the amount of power dynamics/mind-play, you may develop a very strong emotional attachment and connection to your BDSM partner. There's a lot of trust, connection, and intimacy in these kinds of relationships. Don't underestimate it, and make sure you're on the same page with your BDSM partner in terms of expectations/what you mean to each other. Have conversations and check in with each other about where you're at emotionally on a regular basis. Unfortunately, I got severely emotionally burned by my former FWB/BDSM partner because even though I thought we were on the same page (in that it was a rewarding, intense and fulfilling physical and emotional connection), to him, I was just convenient, fun, and ultimately, expendable, when he started seeing another woman and 'just really liked her'. Be aware that this is always a possibility when having any kind of relationship with alloromantic people. They will screw you over in the name of 'love' and amatonormativity. Always choose what is in your best interests (such as self-care and ending things when you start doubting your own importance in a person's life), even if it goes directly against what you want (or are hoping will happen). And as a practical consideration, if you feel like you won't be able to impart the seriousness of the conversation in person, ask the person over text or through email if starting a BDSM relationship with you interests them. This gives you a good opportunity to outline your boundaries, limits, and what you're looking for as well. Good luck!
  3. ladyasym

    You might be aro if...

    YMBAI you wish shows like 'Jane the Virgin' had less lovey romantic stuff, and more focus on platonic relationships and murder-y intrigue.
  4. ladyasym

    S.A.G.E Gender Test

    That was a really interesting test. Definitely take it with a grain of salt - basing gender analysis on stereotypes and problematic 'gender identity disorders' is a little sketch and won't really be accurate for many people. For me, it actually was helpful in clarifying some things. My overall score was 455. I can't attach an image, but essentially, I'm overall androgynous. I present and socialize feminine, but my thought processes are androgynous. This actually neatly spells out why I'm comfortable being a woman, but why my gender identity has never really been a defining aspect of my overall identity. I'm a little confused as to why I'm a cross-dresser, but I could see myself potentially adopting masculine traits/appearance to explore in certain situations - I'm just not all that interested, lol.
  5. ladyasym

    physical 'symptoms' of romance repulsion

    For me, kissing is not inherently romantic - so I don't usually notice or care when I'm around PDA. Unless of course, the couple is acting particularly romantic or over-the-top flirty - then it's gross, haha. Like if my roommate and his girlfriend are cuddling on the couch, and acting all lovey-dovey I generally need to leave the room, lol. I get really bad romance repulsion while watching movies or shows - I actively walk away or browse my phone, and just get fidgety. If I'm watching with someone else, I make cranky comments. Some shows that I love (like Jane the Virgin) I need to pause every 5-10 minutes and go do something because it's so romance heavy and I get distracted/can't pay attention to the storyline, lol. Romance repulsion usually manifests for me as a general fidgetiness, feeling very uncomfortable, wanting to look away or do something else, occasionally nausea. I've only had really bad chills/nausea with romance repulsion when there's a grand romantic gesture directed at me, that I have to react nicely to and can't run away from.
  6. ladyasym

    Romantic stories that you like?

    Ha, this must be a fairly recent (within the last 5-8 years) thing. Back in the day when I was deep into the HP fanfiction world, there was none of this A/B/O stuff. Good to know what the youth are up to these days, lol. On topic, I'm pretty romance repulsed for movies, but for some reason, have a higher tolerance with books. So, romance stories in the classics (Jane Austen, Brontes, Tolstoy, etc.) I'm into. I'm ambivalent toward YA romance, and I like reading about romance in memoirs (Thru Hiking Will Break Your Heart is a good one). Also, I am neither religious nor romantic, but I find Amish romance novels really satisfying for some reason. More escapist type reading. I don't know why. Maybe the idyllic country setting and sense of community? Oh, also the Sleeping Beauty series by Anne Rice is 10/10. It's straight up BDSM erotica but I love the portrayal of intimate relationships and connections that aren't a 'typical' romance.
  7. ladyasym

    Platonic va Romantic

    In my experience, there's a significant difference when the relationship is more of a romantic-type. Personally, I define intertwining lives by such things as: * Having a common or shared bank account * Co-signing long term loans, mortgages, or car payments * Spending significant amounts of time with the other person's family, especially around holidays or when you would prefer to spend more time with yours * Referring to 'we', 'us', or 'our' when discussing beliefs, future plans, etc. * Symbolically intertwining lives in a marriage ceremony * 98% of your personal time (outside of work or friend gatherings, and family commitments) is spent with them * Being mentioned in one of their family members obituaries * Any and all long-term personal, career, or life goals are worked around with them as the primary concern. Now, I totally get that any or all of these things might be present in a QPP without it being romantic. That is, by definition, the essence of a QPP or QPR. This is more of a general list of how (again, in my experience) romantic-type people intertwine their lives, and how I view the more practical components of a romantic relationship. Generally speaking, when you hang out with someone for a reasonable amount of time, or want to get to know them better, you don't ask them for joint access to back accounts and credit cards, or want to spend a significant amount of time with their family around the holidays to the detriment of your own...unless you're a con artist, lol. 😁
  8. ladyasym

    Platonic va Romantic

    As an aromantic pansexual, I feel those feels a lot! Normally, if I'm feeling very strongly about someone but can't figure out exactly how, I try to articulate my feelings by asking myself a series of questions: Do I think they're pretty? (Aesthetic) Do I want to be physically close? (Sensual) Do I find them interesting/want to hang out with them and get to know better? (Platonic) Do I want to bang them? (Sexual) Do I want to intertwine my life with theirs/be romantic? (Ha, no, never) I have a difficult time figuring out if a particularly strong platonic-aesthetic-sensual-sexual combo of feelings is romantic or not. It kind of feels like it, because I genuinely care deeply about the person and love being around them, and it doesn't help that I don't really know what romantic attraction is (shouldn't it be similar??). It helps that I was in a relationship with a very romantic person, so usually I just picture the person doing the kind of things my ex would do (like flowers, introducing me as a partner, expressing their romantic feelings, etc.) and note how it makes me feel - usually, uncomfortable lol. So you could try those strategies to help clarify your feelings toward someone, and figure out if it's romantic or not. If you don't have personal experience with someone being romantic towards you, picture the person doing a romantic gesture from a movie, and note what your initial reaction is.
  9. ladyasym

    Using Valentine’s Day to show platonic love.

    I'm actually sending my best friend a card for Valentine's Day this year expressing my love and appreciation for her. I definitely think that Valentine's Day has the potential to be more about celebrating other kinds of love - when I was growing up, my parents made me and my brothers cards saying how much they loved us. So for me, I ignore the icky romantic marketing and take it as a day to express my appreciation and love for many of the people in my life. Screw society, let's make our own rules and normalize love outside of a romantic context!
  10. ladyasym

    AROCALYPSE ARO WEEK 2018

    Great minds think alike! I've been designing a poster to go up in my community, and have created an email for people to reach out and get more information. I already do most of those things in my day-to-day life, but definitely going to amp it up during aro-awareness week. The chalk messages are a great idea - for those who live in less snowy places! If there's enough support in the LGBTQA+ community wherever people live, you could organize a social night to celebrate Aro-Awareness week? Just as a fun gathering for everyone, but with an aro-theme.
  11. I feel this on a very deep level. Touch is also my primary love language, and I don't get nearly enough of it - especially since I moved thousands of km's away from everyone I was close with. So I'm pretty much always touch-starved and feel very restless/lost much of the time. It's gotten a bit better since I've found a very lovely and cuddly FWB, but even a lot of touch 1-2x a week isn't really enough. I would suggest getting a body pillow, I find those are really soothing. If you're a sexual person, maybe look for a FWB type relationship, or even a cuddle-buddy. If it works for you, one-night stands are also a quick-fix way to go (but just be safe about it) - and though they worked for me in the past, I find they're not worth the energy for me anymore. If it's within your budget, you could also look into having a massage 1-2x a month. Hang in there though - I wish touch was way less romantically-coded and more of a common thing.
  12. I don't think they'll think that you were 'lying' to them. Do they know that you're ace? Maybe approach the topic like: 'I've been doing a lot of thinking and self-exploration lately, and I think that I'm aromantic.' Emphasize that it doesn't change the way you feel about them as a friend or as a person (and if you like the way things have been going in this relationship), say that you're happy with how things are. If they ask what your needs are as an aromantic person in the relationship, make sure you state your needs clearly (and reiterate as needed). Not gonna lie, I suspect that coming out to them will cause a shift in your dynamic and relationship, as their needs should also be considered. As a very romantic person, do they 'need' someone to reciprocate that romantic attraction? Or are they happy with being in an emotionally close platonic relationship? How will this work in the long-term (if either of you are thinking that way), is polyamoury a possibility to ensure that everyone's needs are met? Just some things to consider. I was in a relationship for 2+ years with a very romantic person, and when I came out to him as aromantic months after we broke up, our whole relationship made more sense to him, and he was able to move on (without the regrets or feeling like he was the only reason I ended it). Hopefully by coming out to them, the relationship or 'quirks' might make more sense to them, especially if you have had any romo/aro-type conflicts in the past.
  13. So many things I don't understand about romantic people! Why there has to be this complicated dance around hooking up but still being friends. Some people will hook up, but refuse to talk to you outside of a sexual context - like, I don't want a relationship?? Why can't we just hang out as friends and watch a movie and hook up later? And if we do just hang out, why do alloro people make it full of weird vibes? Ghosting. I hate this so much. If I am investing my time and emotional energy into someone, I don't want to be left hanging. Like if we've already established that there is no 'relationship goal' and it's all for fun and friendship, why ghost? It just doesn't make any sense. If the sex isn't good, why stay together? I have a friend who constantly moans that her partner is too vanilla, and the sex is dull, and they don't want to try anything she's into. So why...? I know I'm a sexually-energetic aro, but seriously - why would you want to suffer boring sex for (presumably) the rest of your life? Why they always think things can be 'worked out'. It seems like they're always working something out. Sorry, but if your partner is dull and hates your family and isn't interested in anything that you like to do, why are you investing so much time into making it 'work'?? Engagements and weddings - why go into debt for something so fleeting? Like buy a house instead - it'll still be there in five years when you divorce and kick them out. Why romance is given such prominence in almost every single book and movie. There are more interesting things in life. Like crocodilians. Shipping. And being emotionally invested in a 'ship' and defending it within an inch of its life and putting so much energy into justifying the very existence of a 'ship'. What even is dating. What constitutes a 'date'. What elements make it a date. What makes it different from doing an activity with someone that you enjoy being around (or want to be around more). Ugh, amatonormativity. Romance is more trouble than its worth - why do so many people think it's the be-all and end-all of human existence?
  14. ladyasym

    BDSM Relationships

    That's unfortunate! I haven't had too much trouble finding play partners, but I'm looking forward to going to an event next weekend and hopefully meeting some more people in a casual context. There's always a few couples looking for a third, but so far, the scene here seems pretty inclusive. I really enjoyed your article - very interesting, and I definitely appreciate your perspective. Thanks for sharing!
  15. ladyasym

    Aromantic Character Headcanons

    So, does anyone else watch the show 'She's Gotta Have It' on Netflix? Honestly, I'm really vibing with Nola Darling right now - I think she's aro-spec, because she's a relationship anarchist but gets uncomfortable when her sexual partners make things romantic or want to take things 'to the next level'. Could be wishful thinking about me really wanting more aro-representation in the media, but I think her aversion is more than just 'commitment phobia'. Also, if you haven't watched the show - it's wicked, and 110% worth watching.
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