So I'm a very shy and anxious person. I have no friends in real life. I have a couple online friends. I get ignored on the Internet. I get made fun of a lot too. Like I will be out shopping with my family and random strangers will stare at me like I'm really wierd. Yesterday I was in the store and someone said she's a retard then laughed. I wasn't doing anything out of the ordinary. Just speaking with my mom. Anyway I've been bullied in elementary to high school. It was horrible. I was in special education classes. The kids in those classes would ignore me and stare at me wierd. I've been bullied for the way I dress. I like the Edgy rocker kind of clothing style. People have said I'm trying to act white. They made fun of my clothes every day. On the Internet I've been ignored by people when I was just trying to have a friendly conversation with them. I have a hobby of collecting dolls and I've been on forums for collectors trying to find friends. But even those people ignore me and stay away from me. I joined a Discord for asexuals people I chatted with a few people but they weren't interested in being friends. I posted a picture of my artwork but it was completely ignored and got buried in the chatroom.
I don't understand. I feel like I cannot fit in with anyone else, not online or in real life. I can't fit in with other black people, I can't fit in with people with disabilities, I can't fit in with other asexuals, I can't fit in with the Edgy rocker crowd. Sorry if this post is too long. I just needed to vent. Not that anyone cares.