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Kürtőskalács

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  • Name
    Kürtőskalács
  • Gender
    female
  • Pronouns
    she
  • Location
    Europe
  • Romanticism
    aro
  • Sexuality
    bi

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  1. Thank you! I'm not out yet so I'd rather not use my regular account but maybe they'll accept an account made just for that 😅
  2. Hi everyone! I feel like I'd like to talk about these feelings and experiences (and some other things too) with people in a chat group. It would be nice to get to know some people with similar experiences at least in a chat as right now it's not possible for me to find any in real life. This forum is nice and all but I would like to get a bit more personal touch to it, you know. Anyone interested? Whatsapp, Facebook, something else? :)
  3. Ah, languages 💜 I'm native in Finnish and I speak English fluently. I have a B2 level (upper intermediate) in French and Swedish, and I've lived in Norway so I know a bit of that too (Swedish and Norwegian are really similar). I'm conversational in Hungarian and I've studied tons of languages. Right now I'm taking a course in Georgian and I think I'll study some Wolof and/or Mandinka as I'm planning to spend some time in West Africa soon.
  4. So I guess I just want to talk about my recent "aro awakening" anonymously and I suppose this is where I should do it. Basically it was only two days ago it even crossed my mind I could be aro (I'm 20). I'm still not completely sure about it but the label feels right so I suppose I'm doing some experimenting now, for example by writing about this. I never even considered the possibility because I reallly like romance. Like I like reading about it, I like movies about it and so on. I'm even in a long term relationship (3 years and counting), so aromanticism wasn't really something I thought would fit me. However, a while ago I realised aros can like romance and the idea of it. So I started examining my situation a bit more. I have never told this to anywhere and it's the main reason I want this to be anonymous: I don't love my boyfriend romantically. It broke my heart to realise it, because I really love him in other ways and I'm very happy in our relationship. The realisation was like 1,5 years ago but as both him and I were/are happy in our relationship I didn't want to do anything about it. The only things I would like to change about him or our relationship are minor (apart from the fact that I wish I loved him like he loves me) and I know I will probably never find anyone as caring and genuinely good-hearted as him. However, I haven't thought about the aro aspect too much until now, I just thought it was him I couldn't love. I still don't know which one is the case, really. Then now, two days ago, I started thinking about my other experiences. I always thought my crushes were forced, too light and too easily born. Sometimes I had never talked to a person and still claimed to have a crush on them, and these crushes would change very often. So now that I think about it, I'm fairly sure I've been confusing sexual attraction and crushes. As said, I really like romance and I've wanted relationships since a young age but once when I was 12 I realised something quite weird. I realised if almost any guy (I thought I was straight) in the class would show any interest in me, I'd go for it. I was confused because it's a very popular theme in media to have the main character choose between true love and convenience, and I couldn't really relate to that as I was basically ready to date almost anyone. Even then I realised I was really young so I just blamed it on my age. However, I don't think that has changed much. Even with my boyfriend, while my love/attachment for him has grown as I've spent all this time with him, I don't really think what I thought was a crush has evolved into anything more, let alone romantic love. I always thought I had fallen out of love, but now that I think about it I don't think I ever was in romantic love. At least in the way other people seem to describe it. Which leads to the last point of my examining. I've never really experienced the things people use to explain romantic love (unless it's things that fit other types of love too, eg being willing to sacrifice a lot or even die for someone). So I am fairly sure I've never been in romantic love. However, I'm quite young so I don't know if most people my age even have really been in romantic love (and now I'm not saying no person my age or younger can be sure about being aro/ace, it's just about me personally!). I feel like it's very unlikely to find ""the right one"" this young I find it weird how most TV/movie "true love" couples are like teens or young adults. I don't know if it's a) just me being aromantic b) me being unlucky and that most people do actually find real romantic love this early c) the shows/movies just want romance with people in a "sexy" age / they're trying to appeal to the young audience, so it's not based on reality. To conclude, I don't really know if all this is caused by my feelings about my current relationship, by my lack of experience or by actually being aro. At the moment I feel like it's the last option but I'm not sure yet. It's only been two days lol So there's my story on this topic. Mainly wrote it for myself, but I'm glad if someone else read it all too.
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